'Holy Terror' -- SPN 9x09

Warning: Spoiler Alert

Fuck you, Show. Why do you keep taking people away from me? LEAVE THE SECONDARY CHARACTERS ALONE!! I don't know why the writers of Show keep wanting to hurt me, but they do. They want to rip out my insides, and instead of walking away from the abusive relationship like any rational person would, I keep coming back and telling them that I would like to have another.

The feels are threatening to destroy me. I didn't expect that I would have such feels over the guy, but I do, and I want something awful to happen to Gadriel ... something awful bad like whoa.

However, I will say that I did let out a slight squee when it was reveled that we have actually been dealing with Gadriel all of this time, but that comes from the fact that I have used Gadriel in the first book of the series that I'm currently writing (and it was kind of cool to see someone else use him as well).

That being said, I do not like the fact that he was being used by Metatron to do his dirty work (now that he's not able to use Cas anymore), cuz now that we know a little bit more about what's going on with Gadriel, it seems like he's actually not a bad guy (and that he's being manipulated by Metatron to do his evil bidding). I get the feeling that he wouldn't have done what he did, and he wouldn't be doing anything else in the near future cuz of Metatron if he wasn't so desperate for the other angels to forgive him for what he thinks that he did. It's a bogus wrap, since it seems to me that he was destined to fail, but he's been carrying this weight on his shoulders for all of these years, and Metatron is completely using that to his advantage (cuz he's a bastard).

I would love, love, love if Cas was able to take back what Gadriel did, but I doubt that it's going to happen. There's already been so much of that this season that I have the feeling that the writers are going to make this one stick just to make it that much more gut wrenching (which makes me hate and love them). But now that it has happened, I want to know who is going to take Kevin's place, and if s/he is going to be someone who is going to be down with the Winchesters. It was kind of luck (in a way) that Kevin became an honorary Winchester (both in his mind and in their minds), but that doesn't mean that it's going to happen that way with someone else.

And you know what else, this would also be kind of a perfect time for them to actually explore what the hell happened with Chuck. Cas mentioned it once last season (it was last season, right?), and it hasn't been mentioned since. I'm really surprised that it hasn't bothered them at all, since they were buddies with him, and they know something would have had to've happened to him for Kevin to get tapped for his duties.

Also, speaking of Cas ... him taking Theo's grace and becoming an angel again ... you know what I would absolutely love? If we come to find out that angels can only ever really function with their own grace, and if they take someone else's, it's not only like trying to make something fit inside a container that is too small and the wrong size, it will eventually lead to angel goo all over all of the walls. I want this to only be a temporary fix, and he will eventually have to get back his own grace from Metatron to be right and whole (and a real boy).